Peter was my least favorite disciple when I was a kid (we’re not counting Judas in this, it’s for the drama). He was constantly asking questions and messing up and just being bold with his choices in front of Jesus. I mean— come on, it just seems kind of…rude? Right?
I remember the morning I woke up on my 22nd birthday. Ironically, it was one of the most memorable birthday mornings I ever had. I woke up, opened my eyes and realized that life was never going to be the same again. It was the day I officially felt like I was growing up. The day where I no longer had anymore “youthful” expectations because of my age. The day I grew up.
And it sucked.
Let me clarify. My birthday was great! It was this realization that my age really does just go up. Okay that makes me sound like an idiot. How about this— there are no more official toys or epic shindigs for ages over twenty-two, yeah, sure I am still a young adult but that age range starts to become blurred starting at that age. It is really strange.
This similar feeling hit me today as I started my final semester in college here at Abilene Christian University. Granted—I did not have any classes today and the classes I am taking only add up to six hours. As a part time student I really spend most of my time focusing on jobs and outside things. It is a time in my life where I am transitioning into a new stage of life. But I woke up with this feeling in my stomach that this is my last semester of getting to be that CrAzY college student before I enter into that next stage…
Being grown up.
Growing up doesn’t look that bad though. I don’t think so. Sure—there’s taxes, insurance, and the worry that at some points things will not go as expected, of course there are still many people who take these responsibilities right out of high school, but when you do grow up— you always get to see the transformation and love that God instigates in your life. It’s kind of legit.
Throughout the last year I have come to realize that the disciple Peter and myself are very much of the same kind of breed. We’re exactly alike. As I said, he asks questions, constantly messes up, and he makes some pretty bold choices in the eyes of those around him-including those around him. Now who does that sound like? Which makes the Gospel such an important resource for me to always look back to.
I am thankful for the writers of the Gospel, that they were vulnerable with these stories. I am thankful for Peter as I believe he embodies much of the way I for sure would have been like had I walked in that time. It allows me to see how much of his journey with Christ is such a tool in helping me understand my own journey with Christ. I mean— I am sure that when Jesus went to heaven after being raised from the dead, many of His disciples, including Peter, felt like they had to grow up quite quickly. I mean— His promise has just been completed and now we have to share this good news with everyone. That is some pretty sudden expected maturity.
Of course— when I felt I had to grow up it was definitely not as dramatic as that of the disciples and mine was much more social and less spiritual. But I am nearing the time in my life where the official title of student is fixing to wear off and the title of something else will be given to me.
I heard You say
Ooh, “let ’em be forgiven
Let ’em be fathered”
I heard You say
Ooh, “welcome to the Kingdom
My sons and daughters”Kingdom, Influence Music
I listened to this song today, and it reminded me that although things will be transitioning into a new stage of life for me. God still invites me to the Kingdom as His son. A son of the true King of life. Maybe I am stretching this because I just like the song, but I am attaching it anyway because it speaks some straight up Bible.
Yeah, I’m growing up and saving China (as my mother would say time and time again— watch Mulan if you are confused). But in reality God continues to adopt me and father me as His son in which He invites me into His Kingdom.
I wrote about Lamentations 3:22-24 last week, talking about His mercies being made new every morning. President Schubert at ACU gave a sermon on this verse highlighting the need for mercy in our culture today. God’s mercy invites us to grow up in His Kingdom to be a part of His ministry every day.
So let’s go be a part of it guys.