Currently I am writing this about 10 hours away from school and skipping class. Yeah, yeah, my mom and dad already know. But I have spent the last few days with a couple of guys hanging out in and around New Orleans and tonight we are going to the Saints Vs Texans game! That’s partly why this is getting posted earlier than usual. Anyway, I’ve had a couple of thoughts going around my head during this time and I am thankful because I was hoping it would happen so I could post about it. Funny, I know, but that’s where my reflective writing come from!
Me and the guys, (yeah that sounds like my band, I’ll roll with it) we’ve done quite a few things these last couple of days. Friday we took a ten hour drive and met with a friend in Baton Rouge for dinner, did you know that’s where the first Cane’s was built? Then the following day we spent time on the coast of Mississippi for about an hour playing Kan-Jam, we did not swim because the waters are infested with blue-green algae, look it up, it’s quite fascinating. I may have put my hand in the waters, so if I get diarrhea, vomiting, or I die, that’s how it happened. Yeah, so it was just hot as heck on the beach so we left and went back inside and drove to New Orleans.
Got some good Cafe DuMonde beignets, and spent the day there walking around. Super fun. That’s brings me to yesterday, Sunday, going to a casino. Whoa whoa whoa, gambling on a Sunday? Sinner. Yeah, okay, I’ll give that to you. But, I broke even there, so…I just had fun playing cards. Black Jack specifically.
I noticed, that sitting down at that table that it was just stressful. I also realized that to gamble, you have to gamble with the intent on losing all that you put in. You can’t gamble knowing you will win, that’s why they call it gambling. We spent hours there, and sitting at that table brought down so much stress that I’m sure if I had an Apple Watch (for those who want to get me an Apple Watch) it would say “Calm down your heart rate is literally shooting through the roof.”
During these games I found that I can be terrified to go big. But that is the only way to win big. To double down with most of what you have. I am scared to lose what I already have but yet I still hope to win with everything. It is kind of a form of insanity. But one of our friends won big because he went big. I could learn a lesson from him.
“We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain, where Jesus has gone as a forerunner on our behalf, having become a high priest forever after the order of Melchizedek.”
Hebrews 6:19-20, ESV
I know I reference this verse many time, just like that new song I love by Josh Garrels, Anchor for the Soul, and then with those at Fusion Camp this last summer with that fun song we sang. But I am now making this realization that this is not just a HOPE it is a REALITY, that Jesus IS the anchor for our soul. Yet, I still won’t gamble all I’ve got, I will gamble just enough to break even.
“For it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted to them his property. To one he gave five talents, to another two, to another one, to each according to his ability. Then he went away. He who had received the five talents went at once and traded with them, and he made five talents more. So also he who had the two talents made two talents more. But he who had received the one talent went and dug in the ground and hid his master’s money.Now after a long time the master of those servants came and settled accounts with them. And he who had received the five talents came forward, bringing five talents more, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me five talents; here, I have made five talents more.’ His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ And he also who had the two talents came forward, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me two talents; here, I have made two talents more.’ His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ He also who had received the one talent came forward, saying, ‘Master, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you did not sow, and gathering where you scattered no seed, so I was afraid, and I went and hid your talent in the ground. Here, you have what is yours.’ But his master answered him, ‘You wicked and slothful servant! You knew that I reap where I have not sown and gather where I scattered no seed? Then you ought to have invested my money with the bankers, and at my coming I should have received what was my own with interest. So take the talent from him and give it to him who has the ten talents. For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away.And cast the worthless servant into the outer darkness. In that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’”
Matthew 25:14-30, ESV, The Parable of the Talents
It reminds me of this parable. That I am not taking what I am given and gambling it all, BECAUSE, I have already won, so why not bet it all? Why not? So.. let’s do it? Okay.
Time to act on my impulses this week. Scary. But I’m going to do it.
Father God, I am praying boldly that Your Spirit would rise up in me and that You would push me to do Your will. Use my life as a vessel for I am Yours. Take my impulses and make them Yours. That this very week Your workmanship would be made known. You have all the glory. For I am not on this earth to make my own disciples but to share Your love and pray that’s others would become Your disciples. Commission me. I pray this all in Your sons name, Jesus. Who died on the cross to save me from my sins. Amen.