First day of Senior Year at ACU. Whoa. But before I get to that, time to go through my last week.. pretty wild. I have a feeling that this blog is going to be a bit of a jumble and may at some point go into some weird theology that I am still processing so, bear with me as I am figuring this out, but I’m excited to share what’s going on.
I got a job. I know, I know. Crazy, right? “Mitchell can work? Yeah, right..”
But believe it or not, I have a job now. Not a typical kind of job though.. a job that sends me to do other kinds of jobs. Like catering, food service, office work, factory work…really any work that no one has a dream about doing. I get sent out to do jobs that people need to do that are not necessarily full time jobs. Does that make sense? Let me give an example. Of the last few days of working this job I have done multiple hour shifts of working in college food courts and banquet grunt work. Let me go even further into detail…
On Saturday I worked an eight hour shift. From 6am-2pm. Working in a food court at a college campus. What a fascinating experience. I was able to see the inner workings of what goes on behind the preparation of food. Wiping down tables, sweeping, bringing food out, following orders. Hooray… BUT, I also got to meet so many different people. People who work these jobs as full time, people who come from different walks, people who are just looking to the next paycheck. I found myself seeing how much a smile, a “thank you,” a “please,” or even a nice simple nod, would impact those around me. Kindness is a hot commodity now days, which just seems almost unimaginable to me.
So yeah, kind of a crazy job I got there. But so thankful for it. Truly.
What else has happened? Oh, yes. I have now officially added a minor in Bible here at ACU. What??? Big changes going on here. Amid prayer and meditation I have seen the importance, weight, and need for my heart to be a part of ministry. Yeah. I said it. I have finally come to the understanding that being involved in ministry is where I’m headed. And now many people can now say “I told you so.” (Which honestly, some of you already have).
This brings me to a conversation that I was blessed to have earlier today with a spiritual leader. He was so helpful and intentional with helping me process parts of my summer and some of the things I learned. Which is the ultimate fulfillment of the Trinity. Specifically, the Holy Spirit. We processed one of the things that I had experienced this summer:
The Holy Spirit can fulfill me in ways that I had never previously imagined. The Holy Spirit can fulfill me physically, emotionally, and even sexually.
That is such a taboo statement. It is weird. But it is true. I believe it because I have experienced it. But it is SO hard to seek and pursue because it means focusing EVERYTHING on Him. On the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
The Holy Spirit is a gift. Actually it was the first gift we were given after receiving the grace from Jesus. We were to be baptized with the Holy Spirit.
“When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested on each one of them. And they were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.”Acts 2:1-4, ESV
What a gift, right? Like a fire. We have a part of God within us. That is THE most incredible thing. Name one thing better than that.
I think that growing up I was never quite exposed to the emotional sides of the Holy Spirit and much of my relationship was structure, structure, structure. It was extremely difficult for me because I am quite an emotional guy, probably the most emotional in my family I would argue. I mean, come on, I study theatre in college… Because of my emotional sides I really struggled my first two years of college in seeking a church or really even seeking God, when I had no basis of how to seek God except through structure and it was hard for me, for my heart to understand that. It was hard for me to see the importance of having structure without my emotions. So when I truly met the Holy Spirit I saw this side of God that I wanted more of.
My emotional side was able to connect on a deeper level with who the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit truly is. That each part of the Trinity connects to my all, but in such dynamically different ways. Because of this, I began to see such importance to structure, to biblically empowers structure in my relationship with God and with others. It kind of made this whole journey with God, black, white, AND gray.
And so my relationship with God got just a bit more complicated, but oh so much simpler. If that’s possible. (You know, I am going back and rereading what I wrote and seeing just how crazy I sound.. but hey. I believe that a dead guy raised from the dead and that I’m going to be with Him someday.)
ANYWAY. I’m sitting in my weirdly quiet house at midnight with everyone asleep and I see how exciting and charged these emotions are.
We had our first rehearsal for the ACU Homecoming Musical, Beauty and the Beast, tonight. A theme that I have recognized today both in the beginning statements for rehearsal tonight and the ACU opening day chapel is this notion that “I am here.” That every moment is a new moment to start and go with God. A chance to transform. A chance at life with God. Man. That is awesome.
Now what does all this have in common?
A dare to discipline.
With this new job, new mentors, a new understanding, a new show. I see this dare to be disciplined with Christ. Just as I must be disciplined with this job, so I must be disciplined with my job as a disciple. Just as I must be disciplined in reaching out to mentors, so I must be disciplined to reach out to the Holy Spirit. Just as I must be disciplined with this new understanding of God, so I must be disciplined with leaning into that understanding and pressing on that door. Just as I must be disciplined with this new show, so must I be disciplined with the new transformations that God has for me.
Just a Jesus was disciplined with His relationship with the Father, so I must be disciplined with my relationship to His all.
Yeah, I got a lot of thoughts rushing through me right now. I’m hitting new speeds with no intent on slowing down. These are just my beginning thoughts of what is going on right now, be prepared for some more next week.
Get pumped, get excited. Lean in, and be disciplined.