I am back home in the States!!! What a crazy fast summer. I have been back for about three days and it has been such a blessing being home with family. I am so looking forward to these next few weeks before school as I know there are going to be some vulnerable and meaningful conversations.
Having this time of rest for the first time in a few months I have been able to pray and see that my life is very much in a different place than it used to be many years ago. I had this amazing conversations with one of my best friends, Tyler, about the crazy transformation and transitions that I have been through since beginning college.
One of main differences that I have discovered is my boldness in sharing what is on my heart. I feel like years ago I would keep much of my undersides in the dark and be petrified of bringing it to the light for fear that I’m not enough. There was also probably a fear that things would have to change.
And change for someone who does not want to change is not a viable option. Thankfully, I am in a much better place but it didn’t happen on my own, it took many steps with friends and the trust in God to take those steps.
Tyler, the one I mentioned above, taught on the impact of lies in a youth class I crashed yesterday. How believing in lies builds this wall between a loving and forgiving God. He used this verse:
“If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
John 8:31-32, ESV
Truth brings freedom. Well, Jesus brings freedom;
“I am the way, and the truth, and the life.”
John 14:6, ESV
Jesus is the truth. Jesus will set me free. There is comfort in knowing that a complete and whole relationship with Jesus, that knowing Jesus is knowing the truth. By knowing the truth, I know freedom. Isn’t that some impressive transitive property. Or in other words, it is laid out step by step for us.
Calling out these lies and knowing truth is bringing to light the darkness that hides within us. Boldly stepping into that is having an active faith. Well, it’s having faith. Faith is active.
We forget that a lot. Or at least I do. Faith is being active in my relationship with God.
So what now? For me specifically? I have some conversations to have with people. To bring some darkness out and not allow satan a foothold on my life. Because;
“we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”
Ephesians 6:12, ESV
If you read on you see that we need to take on the full armor of God. Our battle is not with man, it is against dark forces. So what better way than to use my vulnerability and build my relationship with others. To not allow satan a foothold in my past.
I see that as I’m writing this I am calling myself to actively take this on. I think I am also asking for prayers that I would do this boldly. To bring out the darkness and let in the light. Let in those around me.
This current transition of life from Slovenia to America is shaping up to be quite an adventurous one. But, I love adventures. God the Father, Jesus the Son, and the Holy Spirit are teaching me that they can fulfill me in all ways. Which is quite fascinating but so overwhelmingly, well, it leaves me speechless.
I hope and pray that those around me will also get to experience this and that I would be able to be used in whatever way so that His name would be glorified each and every day.
These next few weeks are exciting. Things are looking a bit different and I am stoked to see what this upcoming school year is going to look like. It’s going to be fun. Join me on this awesome ride.