Something that I have been learning quite intensely (not just this summer but for most of my life) is the skill of asking questions. Not necessarily about other people, which I think I can be skilled in asking others about themselves, but asking questions for myself.
Growing up I was a different kind of kid, you can find out more about what I’m talking about here.
My deafness definitely hindered some of my outspokenness because I never wanted to ask for clarification on something I definitely misunderstood. It was embarrassing for me. So usually when people said “Did you get that?” I would just say “Yeah.”
Or even if I didnt even hear what they said I would say “yeah.” Even when it did not make sense. It was safe for me. It was familiar.
That is not the kind of life that brings freedom. Blindly saying “yeah” whenever I actually wanted to know what was said. I always felt like I missed out on some really awesome conversations growing up when that happened.
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door shall be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.”
Matthew 7:7-8, ESV
I believe that in the last year God has definitely worked on my heart in terms of asking. But it has come with many challenges. Now, when I read this, I read it understanding that what is given to me is a response. That what I ask for is probably not even close to what God the Father will respond with. But in my growth, I learn to ask the Father, instead of believing that my own will is better.
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand: do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:4-7, ESV
In everything, in prayer, with thanksgiving I should ask. In doing this God has an open door for freedom of myself. Freedom from fear of asking. It is so simple yet so difficult for me.
“For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.”
Galatians 5:1, ESV
Okay. Awesome. These are some bold steps. Bold practical steps. We always want more of those don’t we? And here it is.
The practical step to ask God. The freedom of the Spirit is there. I have to ask. I have to ask God to be better at asking. That is ironic.
One of my mentors here knows that I struggle with asking and they have been so helpful in showing me practical ways to be better in questions. Questions that serve my own growth in the Spirit. It is awesome.
I think the Spirit always has something for us to grow and dive into (where do you think I get my writing material for every week). So I encourage you to ask God, with palms out-stretched and open. And yes, physically do that. Even those of you who feel that you have it all figured out. Ask him,
“Father, what do you have for me to grow in? Have Your Spirit speak to me and give me vision to see what you have for me. What do I need to change, and what do I need to dive into? Show me Your Spirit and show me Your love.”
Pray boldly. Love deeply. And keep on keeping on.
I was reminded of this song this week, and I love this message of boldly asking God to “open the heavens.” It is a powerful anthem that speaks to call on His Spirit. Give it a listen, tell me what you think.