Behold, how good and pleasant it isPsalms 133, ESV
when brothers dwell in unity!
It is like the precious oil on the head,
running down on the beard,
on the beard of Aaron,
running down on the collar of his robes!
3It is like the dew of Hermon,
which falls on the mountains of Zion!
For there the Lord has commanded the blessing,
Honestly, I have felt a little stumped about what I was going to write about this week. I also did not want to write just because I always post on Mondays.. but after my last blog and then some pretty cool events that happened this past week it kind of forced me to look at some things in my life that personally make me uncomfortable but not necessarily many other people.
I do not know if you know about the Enneagram personality test, if not, you should really check it out. It offers insight on what your personality type is, what you lean to in times of stress, how you interact with others, and a bit more..
Alright, did you check it out? Well, even if you did not, I am a type 2. The Helper.
Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.
Yeah. If you know me personally that describes me pretty well. I HAVE to please people. I hate talking about my needs but I want people to meet my needs as well. It is kind of this stupid, idiotic, contradiction for me.
I mention all of this to say that my needs have been met, not by my own doing but by the generosity and intentional mindset by the people around me.
All week people have been coming up to me and complimenting me about The Brotherhood, a film that I am in, and they tell others. Because of this, all week I had friends, and friends of friends, coming up to me and telling me about their excitement, and honestly I did not know how to respond. It made me uncomfortable, but it filled my Spirit up. To know that I have friends that excited for me that they will tell others about it. How do I accept this? Have I really been thinking of myself so little that these interactions instill confusion in me? What do I do next? Have I been listening to the lies of Satan that say I am not worthy of care and compassion?
I know this is not a new song but I have been listening to this song quite a bit this week. It gives me this reminder that no matter what, my brothers, my friends, are there to walk with me.
As I have said on this blog many times before, I am a prideful person, I feel like learning to live in unity with those around me is a lesson I am needing to learn more of each and every day. In this way I am trying to seek the healing that God has in store for me.
This blog was a bit shorter this week, but, next week I have some stuff that I am really excited to share.
Please pray for me, pray for Beltway Student Ministries and my sermon that I am giving on Wednesday, pray for the ACU Theatre department and our upcoming show that opens soon, pray for my summer in Slovenia, that God may provide the funds that I am needing, pray for ACU campus.
ALSO!!! Check out some awesome events this past week:
The Brotherhood officially released!!! We have received some awesome feedback! Please check out the full movie!!!
Also some fun things happened this week:
Soccer and Makeup