One thing I have learned this week is that in my weakness, Satan will try his best to prevent me from recognizing that God is strong. Satan will show e that there is no way to overcome my challenges, trials, and hardships. But. Pursuing God will bring peace and comfort even in the worst of times. A community makes this transition of thinking a WHOLE lot easier.
Let me elaborate.
If you did not read my last blog, you may want to go back and read that for reference for what this past week was like for me.
After a challenging spring break I came to a place of recognizing that I have a lot of work to do. So, I started to reconfigure my days to center around what my Spirit needed. And it was a whole lot more of Jesus. It was challenging at first but I started to run and put in words of life on my playlist of music and it helped. One of my favorite songs was Freedom by Jesus Culture.
Where the Spirit of the Lord isFreedom by Jesus Culture
There is freedom, there is freedom
Yeah, I know it is like a happy go lucky Christian song, but as I was running in the ACU Rec Center and this song played, it was like my surroundings washed away and all that was left was me and God. And I was running to Him. It made me a bit emotional, but with the Iron Jungle right behind me I figured I would suck those tears up and keep running. It was kind of surreal. But it was awesome.
Live as people who are free, not using your freedom as a coverup for evil, but living as servants of God. Honor everyone. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honor the emperor.1 Peter 2:16-17, ESV
However, that Friday, the world kind of put the hammer on me. I was informed that many of my extra credits at ACU will not be counting towards my university required credits. My nine hours of ASL will not be credited due to the fact that it is not recognized as a foreign language on campus. I have WAY more to say to this, but I am afraid that it will turn into a rant that could turn into an angry hate fest on ACU, and that would not be my intention..necessarily. But this began a weekend of unexpected “surprises.”
In fact, the night before this news was dropped on me my car died. Sucky right? Thankfully an incredible friend came and picked me up after attempting to jump my car and even volunteered to take me to get a new battery the following day. So we did, and my car worked..for a short time.
I was planning to drive to Austin this past weekend to attend Gamma Sigma Phi formal and it was starting to not look like an option as I was stranded at a Walmart gas station with a dead car. But with one quick text and less than ten minutes later about five guys were pushing my car out to a dirt lot next to Walmart.
Now, I am going to save you the pain of a five hour description of how long it took to get my car to turn on, but let me tell you. It was the woooorst.
Throughout this time however, I was reminded of the community and brotherhood I am a part of and it kind of stunned me. I was having mood swings the entire time my car was out of commission. I was frustrated, confused, thankful for the guys, joking around, and also emotional. That even in a fairly weak point of my life my brothers would come pick me up, wipe the dust off my clothes, and walk alongside me.
Long story short, the alternator in my car is currently on lock down and I was able to get it to work long enough to make it home. This put a speed bump on my weekend and by the blessing of another friend, he offered a ride to Austin.
I am a prideful person. I truly am. And having to rely on others for help and assistance was humbling and to an extent sometimes frustrating. Usually I help others and in a way this weekend was a reminder that when I am weak, I need the support of others in order to see the strength of God. I was further reminded of this after Sunday night when many people came to see a film that I am in. About twenty people I knew came and I was absolutely stunned.
Someone told me later that night that “People support you dude. I think you often forget that”
This is true. This weekend has been evident of that. When I am weak I need a community. When I am weak I need to see the strength of God. I cannot control the path I take. I can control where I look and what I look to.
The journey sucks. The journey is awesome. The journey is frustrating. The journey is peaceful. Though the journey is all of these things it will not stop me. Because with God, I take the journey onward.
Prayer requests: Eyes to see the strength of God, Humility, that my car would be mended as soon as possible, for my hours at ACU, Thankfulness for the community I am a part of. For the loss of a lovely woman, Melissa Parks, I had the privilege of getting to know a few years ago at my first job as an actor.
VLOG UPDATE: Here is my vlog for the week, these are the ups of the week and some of the awesome fun I really did have throughout the week. It’s nice to watch and see that my time is filled with fun and joyful memories. Check it out.
and FINALLY: The Brotherhood comes out this week stick around for more updates!!