“…Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and be in tenth grade again—remember when I was captain for blue in color war—..”Life Science by Anna Ziegler
Memories. I think they’re one of the coolest, and at the same time, the most dangerous weapons that our minds can wield. In one memory we can relive the best day of our life, in another memory we can relive the worst. In one memory we can reminisce about the “good ole days,” in another memory we can develop hatred for others.
This concept of reliving, almost like the movie “Groundhog Day” with Bill Murray, kind of excites me. Although this movie is not really anywhere close to being on the list of favorites for me, I really do think about the concept a lot. Reliving a day. Reliving a memory. Imagining a moment.
The adventurous part of me would love to see how I can change the outcome and see all the possible choices, but the logical side of me would be constantly terrified all day every moment.
I was thinking about this throughout the week because someone shared with me that I spend too much time dwelling on the past and beating myself up over the mistakes I do, or that I will think too much about the possibilities of the future. Both of these things cause a pretty big problem for me. I can’t think about the NOW.
Thankfully there are people in my life who share these things with me so that I can actually recognize it, but also this whole reconciliation, being better, forgiving myself, and grace thing is really hard.
I mean. Who said it was going to be?
I sent this verse to a dear friend of mine not too long ago and I think I needed to hear it just as much as they did.
“But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls.”Hebrews 10:39 ESV
In this chapter of Hebrews Paul is assuring new believers of their new found faith. Through this he references that though they had hard struggles with suffering, they have a full confidence in God. After this verse we get the ever famous:
“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.”Hebrews 11:1-3 ESV
“Yeah, I know youth minister Mitchell…but what about it.”
I can be cheesy. Call me on it, but I think I lose the impact that these verses have on me every day. That I shouldn’t have to linger on the past because I have faith. I shouldn’t have to beat myself up because it is through Christ that I am preserved. I shouldn’t have to be hung up on the future because I am assured of God’s promise.
I’m going to steal something from my intern director, Matt Mormance, from last summer along with “default to trust” and that is this:
No, this isn’t a gang sign, although that would be really cool. But this is what it actually means..
- IN X: In Christ
- PW: Protect Weaknesses
- CS: Celebrate Strengths
- BT: Be Thankful
- C: Communicate
I was sharing these things with a friend a couple days ago and I thought it would pertain to this. That I am in Christ. And through Christ I can protect weaknesses, celebrate strengths, be thankful, and communicate these things.
I’m in the season of memory right now, and remembering these really cool nuggets of Christian identity is fun. Be praying for me, for the journey onward is quite the adventure.
With love, Mitchell
“In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace,”Ephesians 1:4-7 ESV